Rants

How is my peace of mind doing?

Last time I got personal, it was about my happiness and what not.

How am I doing you must be wondering?

I am done school, for the summer at least so I have a lot more free time on my hands.

I am trying to work as much as I can so I can actually enjoy this summer which is something that I don’t usually do, I don’t usually enjoy myself.

I am going to the gym, my doctor told me I gained 13 pounds and even though I ain’t mad at it *looks at bum* the gym is a good thing.

My peace as of lately has been a little rocky.  I am the type of human who wants to help everyone out, I want to be there for everyone but when I need help, I am too proud to ask.  The odd time I do ask someone for something, it’s a problem.  Okay cool.

I want to be there for everyone, but I keep a lot of my own personal struggles and demons to myself, the odd time I can’t take it anymore and I want to share, no one cares to listen.

You see where this is going, I feel alone in a sense, even though I love being alone, spending time with myself, I need human interaction but everyone seems to be too busy to give me the little that I need.

I try to help myself as much as I can, but there are certain things I will never be able to give myself no matter how hard I try.

I have already detached myself from majority of the world, how much more is there for me to really do?

11 thoughts on “How is my peace of mind doing?

  1. It’s so hard to self-care sometimes but don’t feel guilty about it. Sometimes everyone else has to wait while you take care of yourself. It’s so important! I hope you feel better soon.

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  2. As a fellow empath who wants to help others out a lot, I can relate. I have been learning a lot of lessons about stepping back and taking more care of me first. It’s not selfish. It’s necessary. It also makes you stronger in order to be able to help others so everyone wins!

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  3. I can so relate i totally agree we can’t do it all….and thats why we have ‘soulmates’ has nothing to do with intimacy but instead someone who knows our soul and what it yearns for. Its a cycle someones gonna do it for you and you’re gonna do for someone else…thanks for sharing x

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  4. What you said its so true I can definitely relate I tend to help people and listen to them but I don’t get the same love I show towards them. Self care its the best therapy. Thanks for sharing

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  5. ❤ I feel this way too. I really do. You sound like a lovely person. I hope you find people in your life who appreciate you. I know it's not a replacement for real human interaction, but I recently started hosting a link-up for mental health/mental illness blog posts. If you're ever interested in joining and connecting with other people who write on similar topics, it's every other Friday on my blog, called "Off-Fridays." There's one open now but it's closing at 9pm PST, the next one's next Friday 🙂

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  6. I pray that you find a friend that will be there for you and take care of you the same way you do for others. I know what it’s like to feel lonely but you seem like a strong person and you will get through it. I’m sure it’s just a season that you’re going through right now and all seasons must change. Keep your head up boo and be encouraged.

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